sun in the mud.

I forgot......

Yesterday i was astounded by absolute beauty-a woman, covered in scarves and layers-a weary face peeping through. She was offering us all she had, and we rejected her, but there was one, one person who noticed her, felt compassion and acknowledged her trade-giving generously. Her face was stunning-instantly radiant in her thanks.
Her teeth were gold and broken, her face dirty and worn, her clothes showed hints of majestic colour, yet appeared faded and dull, her very countenance was pitiful yet by this act, this simple act of simple behaviour, saving behaviour she was transformed.

I was reminded of another-offering all she had in an alabaster jar, rejected by many yet noticed by one. The one whose eyes are ever fixed on her....i was humbled yesterday and challenged, what if more people acted as this one did, trying to follow our servant King....

What glory would we find in the dirt?

Samedi

Lethargy vs Impetus.....

So today on this saturday, this generic English saturday my usual dilemma takes place.......

My head and my heart are full of passions and drive-there are so many things i love and would love to do-i honestly do want to save the world a little bit....but then there are pyjamas.....beautiful unassuming pyjamas.

I have already ventured out of my house today-i ate sausages,hugged friends, had some banter, holiday shopped it up and discussed lifeguard helicopters but then i returned and almost instantly my desire to be active and pursue reality evaporated, and i am currently ensconced in a duvet-watching cricket and imagining acceptable excuses to not go out later....(yes apparently i have aged prematurely.)


So i suppose im asking the question really....how does one maintain enthusiasm for life and all its inhabitants when sleeping and acting as though asleep are so much more appealing?


GOD.


He made me. He made my heart. He gave me dreams. Why then did He allow pyjamas to be made??? aaaaaaaaaargh but seriously- i know that to do the right thing is to pursue Him, but so often i find myself casually doing the opposite of that and it frightens me and annoys me but obviously not enough.

Anyway it seems as though this was many words to make the basic point: sometimes i am too lazy, and i revert into utter selfishness. I pray for altruism.... and for an 8th day in the week for me to indulge myself heheheh

i will go out tonight, i shall go and eat curry and answer many wonderfully difficult questions right in this quiz and be crowned queen of all knowledge...realistically il manage to blag a couple of correct answers regarding dismal televison programmes i should never have seen..eek.

I feel this has been a messy deluge of thoughts about nothing-my apologies.


Arrivederci x

"I'll clout you round the face"

These were the delightful words shouted at me by one of my patients today....spent the day trying to avoid "the beats" lol was not too much fun, infact it was difficult, so im t...i....r.....e....d... now!


also i am HUNGRY! i am currently on my own more fun version of the "special K diet" but there were some yummy choc biccies at work today and due to the aforementioned punching threats i felt i was allowed some, this however meant i consumed my evening calorie allowance on 4 "extra chocolatey cookie crunches!!" hmmmm not too sensible really!

Also i apologise for the pretentious nature of some of my previous blogs....sometimes i write like a dousra....

peace out

Febbo

I am a real nursey!!

forgive me but sometimes i forget and then i get excited when i remember, sometimes i feel too young to have so much responsibility but actually i am accountable to God, so im sure il be alright.....I adore all of the elderly people i work with and i see beauty in their every wrinkle...(well maybe not in their butt wrinkles hehe....) it is such a privilage to know that i am where God wants me, and to know that this time is not just this time but is a period to grow passion that is sustainable for always.....


I am blown away by God right now-absolutely astounded, in the last few weeks He has demolished my ideas about His love and is currently building new and amazing truths within me, i dont understand it, infact i am completely mystified, but i love that, because He's God and im small.
I heard an amazing song lyric the other day...

"Nails could never hold the Son of Man."

Wowzaaaaa, praise you Jesus!

I felt quite lonely last week-i missed Charlie and just generally missed having those people who know you entirely around me, it took me longer than it should have to realise though that its no accident those people are not available for whatever reason...maybe, perhaps God would want me to turn to Him when i feel isolated.....yes maybe il give that one a try! Seriously though in the last two days i have felt comforted and uplifted beyond measure, frequently i feel as though my struggles last a moment but the "Godness" of God is permanent, wonderful sustenance and i am AMAZED!

In other news today i have: rejoiced over losing 2 and a half stone since Sept, looked at wedding dresses, made some bad jokes, cleaned some wounds, prayed for healing, had a shower, argued with my brother, made friends with my brother, watched Arsenal win, delighted in the cricket, decided i actually do LOVE Nadal, and eaten half a doughnut. I have obviously achieved many other "thrilling" things-i just thought i would mention the most important ones.... ;)

So il stop these foolish rambles-i dare say i shall make an overdue return in a few months time


Ciao